Getting Old

As a little girl, I probably dreamed about a big fancy wedding, and having kids at this age.  But.....at 28,  my life hasn't exactly taken the fairy tale route.  In examining all the different aspects of my life, there are a lot of things that are going pretty well for me.

First of all, even though I'm not where I want to be financially, I love my job.  I'm not sure I thought I'd be a fifth grade teacher, but I couldn't imagine doing anything else at this point in my life.  Maybe some day I'll move on to something else, but for now, this is where it's at.  I have a long commute, but it doesn't bother me in the least, because I actually enjoy going to my job.

However, when it comes to love, I wonder if I'm two steps behind.  Have I found the love of my life?  I'm pretty sure I have, but as I watch my friends get engaged, and have children....I can't but wonder why I'm not there in my life yet.  Am I flawed?  Is something wrong?  Is it because I'm part of the broken engagement club?  Am I a failure and just can't see it?

Every couple moves at their own pace. but what do you do when you're not on the same page?  Keith is the more level headed of the two of us.  If you know me, then you would know that I'm a hopeless romantic.  I'd live in a shoebox as long as I'm with the one I love.  Keith?  Well, he's got a plan, and he's awesome at making his plan happen.  His plan is career, house, then marriage.

So why does it feel like I'm on the back burner?  I get it, guys want to be the breadwinner.  They want to be financially secure before they settle down.  But I feel like the biological clock is ticking.  Not sure if I want a baby....but I'm definitely ready for marriage.....